Nostalgia…
I miss:
1) Riding on swings in the playground
2) Free periods in high school ;)
3) Nap time
4) Spending time with my parents every day and getting driven to school
5) Off-campus privileges as a high school senior
6) Formal dances (yes, believe it or not)
7) Long phone conversations with friends
8) Being single, and never having had a boyfriend, imagining “the perfect guy”
9) Riding my bike around the neighborhood
10) Times when no one looked at my transcript (besides my parents)
Life will never be the same. How is it that time always slips through our fingers?
Jumping off a cliff
What am I getting myself into? I feel as if I’ll be jumping off a cliff; I’ll be graduating from college in less than 3 weeks and taking off for a foreign country in about 3 months. Then I’ll be thrown into “the real world” by 9 months. It all seems too fast. Am I even ready?
Most of the time, I’ve tried to take pride in my immaturity – or “youth” as I’d like to refer to it as. I always look at least 7 years younger than my actual age. How can someone like me be ready to take on the world of adults or to go off on her own to a different country and fend for herself? I really have no idea, but only time will tell, and if I don’t try, I will never know.
This is an exciting time of change and growth. I feel as if I might be a different person in a very short time from now. I mean, how else am I supposed to take on those challenges? Will I actually act and look my age a year from now?
Well, I’ll need to open my eyes wide and take the plunge.
Thank You.
“I want to thank you…for giving me the best day of my life.”
As the melody of this song by Dido played from my car radio speakers on Saturday evening, I couldn’t help but think of how fortunate I was. Cruising down the road, I reflected upon what a great day it had been. Even through Thanksgiving, it hadn’t hit me all the things I was thankful for. The holiday almost seemed like an obligatory get together with family friends where I was forced to smile and talk about how I’ve been doing the past year. It wasn’t really until the weekend that I appreciated everything I had — an upcoming graduation, the opportunity to study abroad, a united family, a job waiting for me, and at least one lifelong friend.
What more could one ask for really? Of course there’s so much more, but at the moment I would like to take the time to appreciate what I have now.
Sometimes, I feel the reason why I don’t want to get too close to the people that I am most thankful for is because I’m afraid I’ll eventually take them for granted. Even though you might be someone that I enjoy spending time with more than anyone else in the world, I don’t want to allow myself to get too close – for fear that I will lose that special feeling of peace, joy, and gratefulness when I am with you. But just know that you are appreciated, very much so. You have touched my life in a very unique way that can never be replaced and will forever be with me.
If I haven’t really kept in touch even though I said we would, it’s not because I don’t care for you. I do care, probably more than you realize.
