Tired
I’m so tired. I’m tired of worrying, of planning, of competition, of satisfying the parents. I’m tired of procrastinating. I’m tired of making conversation. I’m tired of avoiding one friend to keep another. I’m so tired.
I’m tired of uncertainty and the anxiety it causes. I’m tired of building a safety net. I’m tired of change. I’m just tired.
I’m tired of disappointments. I’m tired of trying. I’m tired of trying so hard and not getting so far. I’m tired of playing the game and losing. I’m tired.
Randy said,
February 5, 2009 at 10:46 pm
“If you see a whole thing ― it seems that it’s always beautiful. Planets, lives…. But close up a world’s all dirt and rocks. And day to day, life’s a hard job, you get tired, you lose the pattern.”
- Ursula K. Leguin
P.S. I stole your Ayn Rand quote because it’s true. You should try it out sometime, I hear it works wonders.